Weight Loss Challenge – Remaking My Self
Photo Taken 6 weeks Ago
Photo Taken 6 Weeks Later on Day 25 of 30 Day Weight Loss Challenge.
I only have two boobs! I don’t need a bra extender! Huh?! What?! For the past four years I have used an elastic bra extender on my bras because it appeared I had four boobs. The extender lengthens the band around the bra, allowing for more room instead of buying all new bras. Well, today, I chucked them in the trash. It is a small victory but one that moved me to tears.
I had a few mental set backs this last week, but my 30 Day Challenge has turned into so much more than just losing the weight. I think this mental roadblock has kept me from really believing that this life change is actually possible. I had an argument with my husband during the week and my immediate response was to cope and console myself with food. I made up for my hurt feelings by avoiding them with pizza and chocolate. My feelings of inadequacy and doubt made me compromise the very thing that is keeping me whole at the moment. I was determined to undermine my success and live up to the very thing many expect of me, failure.
I honestly feel amazing. Even though I get up every hour with one kid or the other, I still have the energy and excitement to wake up in the morning. Finding a realistic rhythm to weight loss has been key for me. Sure, I could have lost twice as much weight if I never had cheat days, but that’s not how I’m going to live the rest of my life, so why do it now? I still have my cheat meals, but the biggest difference is they are planned out. I don’t run out to Taco Bell or Starbucks anymore unless I have planned for it. Not only am I saving calories, I am saving money. I ate pizza, had a candy bar, and went to sushi and I still lost two pounds. I could have given up because I went “out of bounds” but that was the old me. This new energized, excited, and motivated Megan keeps going.
But I will be honest. I didn’t want to keep going this last week. The cleanse days are so hard. They cleanse my body of toxins but also drag out the emotional garbage as well. The self doubt triggers thoughts of comparison, and that is a dangerous DANGEROUS game to play. After meeting with a beautiful new friend, who is literally saving my life through this program I asked myself, “does my view of myself match God’s view of me?” This entire process of remaking myself is only possible through God, so if He is in control why would I doubt I can do this? It’s because I am so used to being fat and unhappy, the uncertainty of what comes next is terrifying. Satan is the father of lies. He wants us to believe the lies that leave us feeling inadequate and unsure of ourselves. Satan will not win this war!
See…so much more than weight loss.
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