More Than I Can Bear
Fourth of July Eve Buddy got pink eye. In all my years teaching and with Biggie in daycare and school, we were spared the trauma – until now. My husband and I got horrible summer colds but toughed through it for the kids so they could see fireworks. Biggie got an ear infection…. My husband got pink eye…. Buddy flushed a Hot Wheel down the toilet and I had to pay a plumber to fish it out…. I got pink eye….My husband got pink eye again. All this illness slapped us in the face within a matter of five days, and suffice to say, I was starting to lose my cool. 1 Corinthians 10:13 No temptation has seized you beyond what people normally experience, and God can be trusted not to allow you to be tempted beyond what you can bear. On the contrary, along with the temptation he will also provide the way out, so that you will be able to endure. “God will not give you more than you can handle.” I think it should be, “God will not give you more than HE can handle.” I’m having a rough week as a mother, wife, daughter, and friend and the burden feels like it is pushing me to my breaking point. Life can get overwhelming to the point that there is nothing left to do but either laugh or cry, and I want to choose to laugh. And I was laughing until today. Today my father’s lung scan came back with a negative result, and I feel broken. My body is worn and my soul hurts. My mother was diagnosed with breast cancer a little over a year ago and that rocked my world. She down played it but it shook our whole family to the core. As a result my father finally went to the doctor for that nagging ache in his chest, which he assumed was the flu. Turns out he had three stints put in his heart and they found spots on his lungs and are now in the process of finding out what it all means. Nothing has been figured out yet and it is too soon to speculate and I pray daily not just for a healthy family, but a sane family. Feeling sick makes all these circumstances feel larger than they are. When I break it down, I can handle pink eye. I can handle a cold. I can handle a toy in the toilet. I can even handle a mother with breast cancer and a father with heart issues. I can handle it because I can lift it up to God and know that HE can handle it. There is nothing too big for my God and he will cover me and my family with his love and protection. I may cry like my heart is broken, sulk at my misfortune, and feel the heavy load of a family depending on me, but I am so blessed to have that very family. Whether you are a believer or not, please send up your prayers, happy thoughts, or good karma for my family. I am surely praying for yours tonight.
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